Well, I better get back to blogging…I did enjoy my week off though. It is fun now looking back over the year with my “picture a day” challenge…so many “little” things caught on film. I confess though, there were times it was exhausting and thus, I only got my camera out once last week. Hopefully I won’t forget to capture some of the “little moments” this year as well, but it is nice to just rest and enjoy a day without thinking, “wait, what did I do today that’s picture worthy?” I also needed a break after “December daily”. It’s funny how excited I get about doing it every year and then forget how exhausting it is by day 15…and then especially AFTER Christmas…good thing I have a birthday and a “year review” to write about or it would be near impossible
Enough of my excuses for my week break though. I’m back to blogging now…not sure what all it will be about this year, but I do know one thing I’m wanting to challenge myself with. And that’s “GRACE”. There is one blogger that I sometimes keep up with and I’ve noticed that for the past five years or so, she starts her new year off with “one little word” that she wants to focus on for the year. I never know where she goes with it from there…I wish she would share more about it through the year…like what she is learning about the word, how she has been putting the word into practice or even just to encourage others to focus on that “word” as well. I think it’s a pretty great concept though and so this past week I think God has been encouraging me to give it a go. He kept giving me the word “grace” and so I am going with it…and even challenging myself to do “more” with it…like I wanted that other blogger to do. I want to share about grace here on the blog as I learn more about it and practice putting IT into practice.
There are several reasons I think I’m to focus on this word this year.
1. I NEED to extend grace to myself and accept the grace that God has already given to me. I am SO very hard on myself (I truly think I come from a long line of women with “self-loathing” issues), but I want to break that cycle before it is passed on to my Lily. So, I am saying I need to extend more grace to myself as I set a HIGH goal of ending a long pattern of self critisism…kind of ironic, but, I am going to work on it with the Lord’s help!
2. I NEED to learn to extend more grace to others. Perhaps because I am so hard on myself, it is hard for me to extend grace to others. Actually, depends on the others. It’s funny the people that I am really gracious towards and pretty sad the people I am least gracious with…like my immediate family. I want them to be so wonderful that I sometimes snap at them for silly things. But, I want them to be able to accept God’s grace to them and so I need to be a model of GIVING that same type of grace. It’s going to be hard…but will be worth it if I can do it! My children are SO worth it!
3. I just think this is such a FABULOUS thing the Lord has given to ALL of us! It’s also very mysterious to most people. I would love to take a good, hard look at the different meanings and examples of grace God gives us in the Bible and help others to understand the exstensiveness of it.
4. I feel like with all the “transitions” our family will be going through this year (with half spent here and half spent in the U.S.), I will gladly ACCEPT grace from others (as in, I hope they’ll be understanding of changes that have occured in me these past three years) and I’m thinking I will need to DISH OUT a lot of grace to others (for example: when I don’t understand them anymore).
Anyway, these are just a few reasons I think God has been bringing “grace” to my mind, but I’m also hoping that through 2012 He will show me other reasons He wanted me to focus in on this “word” this year. I’m excited and nervous all in one (seems to also be a common theme in me right now…like my feelings towards coming back to Texas = nervous and excited).
My journey through the New Testament lead me to start in the book of Romans today and Paul’s greeting stood out to me in verse 7, “Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ”. I then flipped through and notice that Paul started ALL of his letters by extending GRACE to his audience. I was thinking, that is probably the BEST thing he could give to them. We ALL need grace…not only from God (who I believe is the easiest to get it from), but from others. Especially someone who is about to deliver some tough news to you, as Paul often did. He wrote sometimes to discourage them in the ways they were walking, but he always extended grace before he did that. When someone extends grace to us, we know they really love us and thus, it is easier to hear and accept what they have to say. Do you agree? This is why I WANT to parent my children with more grace…I want them to know how much I love them, and when they are secure in that, I believe they will listen to my advice more. This is why I want to extend more grace to my Portuguese friends, because if they feel safe with me, perhaps they’ll get a small glimpse of the safety they could have with Christ. I want to extend grace to believers back home as I encourage them to perhaps get out of their “comfort zones” and start mingling with more lost people! I do this all in LOVE.
Not sure if I am making any sense to the rest of you (I hope so), but I know God is working in me. As I come to your mind this year, I’d love to be remembered in prayer for learning, accepting, applying and giving grace this year! I’d also love to hear your thoughts on grace sometime! Well, I’ll sign off for now, but “grace to you and peace from God” to all the readers of my blog